1 Year!

[kpopwinemom]

I am shocked to find that I have had Dreamwidth for one year! Over a year, actually, since my first post dates back to September 2022. It's been a very wild, wild year, and I feel like it just sped right past and I have completely lost all track of time. I feel like I've sort of fallen off on both reading my mutuals' posts, and posting myself, and as I am procrastinating writing my BigBang fic, I'm going to write a casual blog post!



I started this blog in a pretty hopeless spot, and I feel like I'm in a much more hopeful spot. It's not perfect, but it's a lot better then it was. I started a new job in late February/early March, and I love it. I've been accepted to take some courses at my alma mater, and I'm preparing to apply to the masters program there in the fall. I'm finally focusing on what I love over what seems practical, and it feels like in that way, parts of my brain are starting to come back online.

In spring of this year I had a TOTAL meltdown and found a Shiny New Bias, which I have been laughing about since, because only I would fall head over heels in...???...with a boy who I had managed to be completely oblivious to for...many years. Many. Years. It's very Peak Kmac...I am well known among our friend group for being sort of hot and cold...if I really, really dislike something, there is a huge chance that I will be obsessed with it at some point. I am just an all or nothing sort of person, and if I start to look at something long enough to care I'll probably go feral.

I spent the year up to that point learning about so many wonderful new and lesser-known groups so of course I am unhinged for a large and well-known group, but I have to acknowledge that the existence of a large and well-nourished fic pool is essential to me staying engaged with something at all.

I have also, as you saw above, joined my first Big Bang! I am wrapping up my fic today, and absolutely pounding it out before I have some friends look over it and make the final round of edits next week. I'll have to write a full retrospective on that when I finish!

Anyway, I've really enjoyed having this space here. It's been reassuring to have a place where I know so many of my friends will be as Twitter dies its slow death, and I've really enjoyed having a platform that is lower stakes and slower paced. It's been really lovely, and I hope to spend more time here in the coming year.

xo!
K!

Comments

[adore]

I'm finally focusing on what I love over what seems practical, and it feels like in that way, parts of my brain are starting to come back online.

that's great! i'm rooting for you <3

i'm curious about your Shiny New Bias (i unexpectedly fell for one too, and i'm plastering him all over my journal because i can't help myself)

and i, too, joined my first big bang it's kficbigbang and i'm hopelessly behind on my fic, but still proud of my progress.

[kpopwinemom]

Thank you hahaha

My shiny new bias is Chenle, and I love to be cagey about what I love so mostly I am quiet.

Yes, it's the same one! How are you doing? Will you finish on time? I am going to double down today. We can do this!

[popliar]

I'm glad your year is ending in a better place than it began <3

Good luck with the Big Bang, that is such an impressive undertaking!

[kpopwinemom]

I think it's the purse Taeyong, watching over me ;) <3

It has been fun and exciting! But also SO stressful omg

[moriendum]

I'm glad you're in a better spot compared to last year <3 hopefully it continues to only get better, shiny new biases and all!!

[kpopwinemom]

Thank you!!!!!!